Friend. What is a friend? Is a friend someone who will leave you for the best next thing? Right now in my life, yes. It's almost hurting because what I thought was a friend, isn't. Just someone who's looking for a good time when everyone else is away. I thought for once, that I experienced what a true friendship is like. Someone who always has your back, someones who you can tell everything, without everyone knowing, someone who you can trust.
Right now I feel extremly guilty for not being a true friend. I had a great friend, almost a best friend, someone I could rely on and trust. But I left. Left for a better tomorrow. And now im experiencing someone who I thought was a friend, leave me. It's kinda like that saying, "taste of your own medicine". In fact its exactly like that. But there's always someone there saying, "it's never too late". Never too late to change your mistakes. Trust me on this one. Its too late.

"We'll regreat thoes things we thought of, but didn't ever do"

Wow. That quote really makes me think about everything i've ever regreted. And all the things I was to scared to do.
I've learned to forget about everything that you regret or you'll get no were in life; pondering about the past. The past has past. Live in the present. Live everyday like you won't regret anything, live like you don't care, in other words live carefree.

Sometimes I just feel like I can't trust anyone. Even my closest friends. I feel like I always have to impress them, or try to get them to like me. But if there already my friends.. why do i feel like this?
I think its becuase a year ago i was pretty much a nobody. I had like no friends and was always trying to come off as a nice person or trying to impress someone to becoming my friend. I pretty much desired to be liked. But now that i am, its isn't all that great. I still feel the same.

About the trusting thing:

Highschool is so much drama. I always feel like someone will say one thing to your face, and another behind your back. In fact, i know this. I even tend to do it myslef sometimes. I'll admit now, im pretty much a jerk. I can be pretty harsh about things too. But not about serious things. Infact i know im changing the subject but i really can listen. I don't think any of my friends really know that. But accutly, i love listening, i love to help people with there problems or even spilling out on someone who won't judge me.